Christianity got its original power because of Jesus‘s message of love, acceptance, forgiveness, empowerment, peace, joy, and every other human ideal we all admire and embrace. Somewhere along the line, it became a totalitarian dogmatic code to control and judge people and suck the joy out of their lives. The modern day Evangelical message has nothing to do with authentic Christianity. It never did. I am glad you were able to escape the clutches of this evil pretender.