I fall into the category of what Blanchard would call an autogynephilic transsexual, but have never had a cross dressing fetish (well maybe a little, since I have always liked wearing panties). To refine my identity further I have behavioral, physiologic and anatomic autogynephilia, but not transvestic according to Blanchard, but am not sexually aroused by visualizing myself as an anatomical or physiologic female, so maybe do not really have physiologic or anatomic autogynephilia. Perhaps I am just pansexual or maybe more asexual, since casual sex does not really appeal to me (though I would not turn it down under the right circumstances), but I have a constant and deep yearning for spiritual intimacy and the depth and intensity of the physical relationship which might spring from it. So I guess I am really pan romantic or maybe just a dreamer or romantic dreamer or unrealistic or whatever. Confused yet? If not, you know me better than I do. These are all just labels and unhelpful ones at that. They do nothing more than divide, categorize, stigmatize and antagonize. They add not one whit to my journey of self exploration. I am simply a woman, always have been; I am merely in the process of conforming my anatomy to my identity for my own need to finally be able to live in peace with myself, to be comfortable in my own body. I do not do this for approval or to fit in or for any of the other rationales applied to explain my behavior by others. I finally love who I am and the person I am becoming. Need I say more?