Your comment about hiding your secret impulses more thoroughly so that those around you were not aware of them, resonates deeply. As we followed the path that society and our families laid out for us, there was always a part of ourselves that wished for something different. It was a poor compromise to becoming the people we really wanted to be, but it helped, at least for awhile. Ultimately our true natures could not be denied and we had to do something about it. And here we are, trying to be our best and most authentic selves.